Honestly speaking, my 2012 hasn’t been too great. I have so much on my mind, in my head and I can’t seem get them out. But I know I’ll have to be patient and keep on trying. No matter what happens, I’ll have to dig out my willpower-o-metre for more willpower, more drive, more positive attitude. Sometimes, I don’t know how I keep this up. Haha, it’s just me I guess? I’ll keep trying and trying and trying. And god willing, one day, I’ll find my place in this world and lead a successful life. I’ve been through this. I’ll go through this again. And I know I’ll make it out alive.
It bloody sucks. It’s like you know what you are feeling but you just don’t have the guts to say. Oh no, don’t get me wrong, it’s not ego, it’s internal complication within me. It kills me. It really does because this disorder of mine ends up hurting people unknowingly. Like what the bloody hell. O was never good with words that involves my feelings towards someone. I’m the kind who does with hands, effort, sweat, with my brains. No, never a words person. It’s hilarious because I’m so into quotes, but no, when it comes to the real world, BAM, everything just disappears.
Bottom line, I love you and I could say that you are one of the greatest things I have in my life right now. I don’t know how to say it to your face. I don’t have the guts like you do. I’m just another coward hopelessly in love.
